Thursday, May 31, 2012

An Open Letter to a Friend...

So, It's been a while since we've talked.  I wouldn't have guessed things would go this way, I really thought more of you than this.  It's sad to have yet one more name to add to the list of people who have taken advantage of me and acted like a jerk.  You better cover up, your character is showing and it's not pretty.

It feels ooohhhh, so good, to know that I was there for you in a dark, desperate time.  That I spent time and effort trying to lift you up and be there for you, poured my heart and soul into being the kind of friend I would like to have, prayed for you and encouraged you thru the hardest of times, and now just days later when others are giving you attention, suddenly I am of no significance.  Forgive me if I feel a bit used, I never knew that's the way a "friendship" worked. 

See, one thing I have learned over the past couple of years is not to make someone a priority in my life, when I am only an option in theirs.  I am nobodys plan B.  I am worth more than that. I am the kindest and best of friends, I always go the extra mile and give out of the kindness of my heart because that's the kind of person I am and that's the kind of people I want in my life.  You only get what you give.  But of course, you know exactly what kind of girl I am.

You may think I'm really angry.  I'm not.  Just very disappointed and truthfully, hurt.  The one thing about it is, I will let this go and I won't worry about it because I know God knows just where to find you,  and you see, He's my biggest fan.  He'll deal with you.  :)

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